I admit digging deep to change my mindset of expecting those practicing medicine to have all the answers to every possible malady in the human body. I had spent more then my fair share seeking expertise of medical doctors who stood around me with gaping mouths time after time, totally unsure how to find solutions for me except to offer batches of pain medications. I realized the door in front of me meant life or death, and it was up to me to make the choice.
Do I embrace a new level of learning? What is not working in this season? How to let go and release old thoughts or habits? Is it possible to return to health with myself making decisions to advocate a new direction? What am I willing to invest? Is my life worth fighting for? What would be in my review mirror?
Enduring years of pain, with more questions then answers, dozens of tests leading down one rabbit hole after another, it took all of the little bit of energy I had left to make a single choice to shift direction versus completely giving up, strangled by hopelessness in mind, body, & emotions.
My choice to become my own personal health advocate took reversing a "set mind" = "mindset" that started me down a path completely unknown, barely a glimmer of hope, 180 degree then previously tried. It was either risk all, or a final slip to the point of no return.
To say it took courage is an understatement, and was not an overnight solution, in fact in many respects the journey became more difficult. Many years, realistically decades, living through one episode after another as a struggling survivor. Labels do not do justice to the pain & agony of failing organs, life threatening body systems , all the while learning daily "work arounds" yet still provide loving care & connections for my family, business & community commitments.
The journey has been often solo, unfamiliar in every aspect imaginable with strange foods, ingredients, handmade combinations, & alternative treatment methods just to find a pathway to health.
Today I can say a heartfelt "thank you" full of gratitude for those who blessed me along the path. My relationships and resources have changed, some who found different direction and vision for themselves. I recognize pain may propel one toward a created purpose, and consider myself so incredibly blessed to have found mine.
So truthfully, "I have lost it..." I have lost the desire to hand over my mind, to any other then myself who will advocate perfectly, guided by inner discernment and instinct from The Creator of the universe.
This journey includes far more then myself, I look forward to joining those ready to risk their own lifestyle shift to really LIVE On Purpose.
"Follow effective action with quiet reflection. From the quiet reflection will come even more effective action" - Peter F Drucker
Fueling the Mind and Body with Real Food .... Your RFA Real Food Advocate ; MEG John Maxwell Team
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