Lose It!! "My Doctor wants me to....."

I admit digging deep to change my mindset of expecting those practicing medicine to have all the answers to every possible malady in the human body. I had spent more then my fair share seeking  expertise of medical doctors who stood around with gaping mouths time after time,  totally unsure how to find solutions except to  offer batches of pain medications. I realized the door before me meant  life or death, and it was up to me to make the choice.

Do I embrace a new level of learning? What is not working in this season? How to let go and release old thoughts or habits?  Is it possible to return to health with critical decisions before me to advocate a new path? What am I willing to invest? Is my life worth fighting for? What would be in my rear view mirror?  
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Enduring decades of pain, dozens of tests leading down one rabbit hole after another, resulting in more questions then answers, it took all of the last fragment of energy left to make a single choice. Would it be to shift direction versus completely giving up, strangled by hopelessness in mind, body, & emotions.  

My choice to become my own personal health advocate  took reversing a "set mind" = "mindset" that  started me down a path completely unknown, barely a glimmer of hope, 180 degree then previously tried. It was either risk all, or the final slip to the point of no return. 

To say it took courage is an understatement, and was not an overnight solution, in fact in many respects the journey became more difficult. Many years, realistically decades, living through one episode after another as a struggling survivor.  Labels do not do justice to the pain & agony of failing organs, life threatening body systems, all the while learning daily "work arounds" and yet still provide loving care & connections for my family, business & community. 

The journey has been often solo,  unfamiliar in every aspect imaginable with strange foods, ingredients,  handmade combinations, & alternative treatment methods just to find a pathway to health.

Today I can say a heartfelt "thank you" filled with gratitude for the few who stood beside me. My relationships and resources have changed, some who found a different direction and vision for themselves. I recognize pain may propel one toward a created purpose, and consider myself so incredibly blessed to have found mine.

So truthfully,  "I have lost it..."  I lost the desire to hand over my mind, and body blindly trusting any other then myself who will advocate perfectly,  guided by inner discernment and instinct from The Creator of the universe. 

This journey includes far more then myself, I look forward to joining those ready to risk their own lifestyle shift to really LIVE On Purpose.

 "Follow effective action with quiet reflection. From the quiet reflection will come even more effective action" - Peter F Drucker 
                           Fueling the Mind and Body with Real Food .... RFA Real Food Advocate ;  MEG   John Maxwell Team